Christmas Fun At Home With the Cuties
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
The Christmas Tree
It is unimaginable, as an adult in my 30's, the joys of getting a very big Christmas Tree for a 3.5 and a 5 year old. They were laughing, joking, and singing all the way home. I got the young man selling the tree to come home with us to put the tree up. He spoke three languages, which the kids were amazed about. Then it was all about making sure it's accessible to Santa when he drops off the gifts. So yup, it's by the window. I managed to hold them off from decorating the tree because Ethan still had homework to do.
After getting the tree, and dropping the young man back at his street corner, we drove to one of my favorite lunch place for dinner. Ethan is at the age where he wants to know what I do during my work day, while he is in school. So he was the one who said we should have dinner at a restaurant I always go to for lunch. There, at Nam, which was a quite restaurant, I had to keep them entertained. Thank God I was in a good mood. Otherwise, I don't know how I could have lip sang all the wonderful 90's songs while waiting for the food. They were mesmerized by my talents and dramatic acts. Perhaps, one day, they'll keep me entertained while waiting for the food too.
All in all, we had a wonderful time getting our tree. Tonight, we'll bring it to life, our style! Stay tuned!
It is unimaginable, as an adult in my 30's, the joys of getting a very big Christmas Tree for a 3.5 and a 5 year old. They were laughing, joking, and singing all the way home. I got the young man selling the tree to come home with us to put the tree up. He spoke three languages, which the kids were amazed about. Then it was all about making sure it's accessible to Santa when he drops off the gifts. So yup, it's by the window. I managed to hold them off from decorating the tree because Ethan still had homework to do.
After getting the tree, and dropping the young man back at his street corner, we drove to one of my favorite lunch place for dinner. Ethan is at the age where he wants to know what I do during my work day, while he is in school. So he was the one who said we should have dinner at a restaurant I always go to for lunch. There, at Nam, which was a quite restaurant, I had to keep them entertained. Thank God I was in a good mood. Otherwise, I don't know how I could have lip sang all the wonderful 90's songs while waiting for the food. They were mesmerized by my talents and dramatic acts. Perhaps, one day, they'll keep me entertained while waiting for the food too.
All in all, we had a wonderful time getting our tree. Tonight, we'll bring it to life, our style! Stay tuned!
Sunday, December 12, 2010
The Everyday
Maintaining routines is a big part of being a parent. Having done that so well, these days when the kids are not with me, I am a little lost despite feeling a little more relaxed at the same time because I am not racing against the clock to get them to bed. Children are amazing because they speak with their hearts. Their love is without pretense, and it's so raw ... so deep. Exactly when does a child become cynical of love? I miss them and our "everyday" together. I hope to love like a child again. Here is a snap shot of their wonderful love, on a short bike trip in lower Manhattan.
Maintaining routines is a big part of being a parent. Having done that so well, these days when the kids are not with me, I am a little lost despite feeling a little more relaxed at the same time because I am not racing against the clock to get them to bed. Children are amazing because they speak with their hearts. Their love is without pretense, and it's so raw ... so deep. Exactly when does a child become cynical of love? I miss them and our "everyday" together. I hope to love like a child again. Here is a snap shot of their wonderful love, on a short bike trip in lower Manhattan.
Friday, December 10, 2010
Tiger, Chicky, and Piggy
The roaring noise from Mommy always annoyed them because it always came at the most inconvenient time to their daily play. Well, like just as Ethan was in the mist of folding the best ever paper airplane, or as Artimus was about to accomplish with her little fingers, for the first time, in putting a stylish plastic dress on a little doll. Mommy was the tiger, who they stared with their angry eyes and who they shunned their sharp little ears. For what do they care about eating or drinking, or washing their hands, or bathing, or brushing their teeth, or, God forbid, sleeping?! Yesterday, the tiger in me just wanted to eat them up. So I picked up Ethan and I roared in his ears while carrying him into the bathroom for his daily teeth-brushing. I roared like a tiger and I threatened to eat up this skinny chick, butt first, unless his mouth opens for his daily cleaning. Unfortunately, he couldn't stop laughing. Then little piggy, hearing the laughter, got in front of the bathroom door and went, "Oink Oink". Well, what was tiger mom supposed to do? Let little juicy piggy go? Didn't she walk into the tiger's den? ... they melted in their own giggly laughters.
Acting like a kid made the routines less challenging. Laughter is also such medicine to the soul. After more than five years, I am still wondering what works with these fun loving kids. Perhaps the thing to do is to just have fun.
Happy Friday.
The roaring noise from Mommy always annoyed them because it always came at the most inconvenient time to their daily play. Well, like just as Ethan was in the mist of folding the best ever paper airplane, or as Artimus was about to accomplish with her little fingers, for the first time, in putting a stylish plastic dress on a little doll. Mommy was the tiger, who they stared with their angry eyes and who they shunned their sharp little ears. For what do they care about eating or drinking, or washing their hands, or bathing, or brushing their teeth, or, God forbid, sleeping?! Yesterday, the tiger in me just wanted to eat them up. So I picked up Ethan and I roared in his ears while carrying him into the bathroom for his daily teeth-brushing. I roared like a tiger and I threatened to eat up this skinny chick, butt first, unless his mouth opens for his daily cleaning. Unfortunately, he couldn't stop laughing. Then little piggy, hearing the laughter, got in front of the bathroom door and went, "Oink Oink". Well, what was tiger mom supposed to do? Let little juicy piggy go? Didn't she walk into the tiger's den? ... they melted in their own giggly laughters.
Acting like a kid made the routines less challenging. Laughter is also such medicine to the soul. After more than five years, I am still wondering what works with these fun loving kids. Perhaps the thing to do is to just have fun.
Happy Friday.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Holiday Train Show
We missed the New York Botanical Holiday Train Show last year. This year, I made sure daddy reserve tickets ahead of time through his corporate membership. So today, we went! The show was great as usual, with a few new additions. For the years 2007 and 2008, we saw the show several times around Christmas so both Ethan and Artimus have a strong memory about what they would see. The excitement was still there, though not as "wow" as when they first saw the train show when Ethan was two and three. Artimus was a good sport, as usual. She thoroughly enjoyed watching the trains go back and forth on the same tracks. Wish we had time to see other performances in the garden but they needed their naps. Oh, Ethan was snapping away with my iPhone. He may be a budding photographer :-)!
We missed the New York Botanical Holiday Train Show last year. This year, I made sure daddy reserve tickets ahead of time through his corporate membership. So today, we went! The show was great as usual, with a few new additions. For the years 2007 and 2008, we saw the show several times around Christmas so both Ethan and Artimus have a strong memory about what they would see. The excitement was still there, though not as "wow" as when they first saw the train show when Ethan was two and three. Artimus was a good sport, as usual. She thoroughly enjoyed watching the trains go back and forth on the same tracks. Wish we had time to see other performances in the garden but they needed their naps. Oh, Ethan was snapping away with my iPhone. He may be a budding photographer :-)!
Saturday, November 20, 2010
As a parent, knowing where to draw the line of who makes the decision is a growing process. While Artimus embraces almost anything, Ethan resists just about everything. Artimus loves her piano lessons and swimming lessons. Ethan resists practicing piano but doesn't mind going to lessons. He would bang his head till it cracks before he would touch water in a pool. And I hear more negative comments from him than I can bear. Is it me? Or is it boys? Or it is him?
I am determined to let Artimus and Ethan learn the things that I wish I had the opportunity to learn. But it seems like Ethan is determined to not learn how to swim. Do I respect his determination? Or do I help him overcome his fear of water? As an adult, anyone who asks me to jump from higher grounds might as well asks me to commit suicide - because it's not about fear; it's about why I have to experience such high level of distress. I ask myself similar questions whenever Ethan resists swimming lessons - will he be missing sooooo much if he doesn't know how to swim?
I must say, it's still so much more pleasant to hear enthusiasm for learning. Artimus would come up to me and say thank you, just like that, for letting her play piano and learn how to swim. Then she would say, "I want Ethan to swim with me." Oh well. May be she will come up with better ideas of how to get Ethan into the pool.
JW
Monday, October 25, 2010
When is death tragic?
Death is tragic when it's unnatural. Today, a close friend who was only 37, passed away after a sudden yet major stroke. (She is on life support but her wishes was to be off of it. Her family needs just a little more time for closure.) She left behind two children, 3 and 6 (and her husband, parents, siblings, nieces etc),
There is a lot of memories of her. Most of them now involve her children. Her children was her life. I will soon begin to realize she is no longer around. Until then, my defense mechanism kicks in and wonder how life can go on for her husband and two kids. I also realize that life is fragile and I must finish writing my living will. I do not want my family to have to deal with wondering how I want things done while still grieving their loss. So to all my friends out there, please write a will, for yourself and most importantly for your loved ones. Anything can happen and we want to make sure those we love know that we love them enough to walk them through the most difficult time.
-JW
Death is tragic when it's unnatural. Today, a close friend who was only 37, passed away after a sudden yet major stroke. (She is on life support but her wishes was to be off of it. Her family needs just a little more time for closure.) She left behind two children, 3 and 6 (and her husband, parents, siblings, nieces etc),
There is a lot of memories of her. Most of them now involve her children. Her children was her life. I will soon begin to realize she is no longer around. Until then, my defense mechanism kicks in and wonder how life can go on for her husband and two kids. I also realize that life is fragile and I must finish writing my living will. I do not want my family to have to deal with wondering how I want things done while still grieving their loss. So to all my friends out there, please write a will, for yourself and most importantly for your loved ones. Anything can happen and we want to make sure those we love know that we love them enough to walk them through the most difficult time.
-JW
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Mama is Confused
It's the fifth year that I have been struggling with where Ethan should be sleeping, with the last two years being at war to put him to sleep in his own bed. Today, at the dentist, I realized he really could sleep in his own bed, except for my weakness. Poor Ethan had an infection discovered by his dentist on a regular visit. The x-ray showed that the best thing to do is extraction. So Ethan was totally taken by surprise. I could understand the pain and anger. It appears from the dentist that he was more difficult than most, and he screamed at the expectation of pain, as if he was in pain. That made it even more difficult to decipher whether he needed more "sleeping drugs" for his mouth. At one point, he was so mad that he pulled my hand over and gestured that he wanted to bite me. I was really upset. After all was done, and the dentist stepped out, I explained to him that either we have more problems with all the surrounding teeth or pull just the bad one out once and for all. Ethan seemed to have understood that, because mommy had sat with him on three baby root canal over the summer, and many fillings before that. I am more sick of the dentist and the dental bill than him. When we left, he even said thank you to the dentist on his own initiative.
This whole dental experience had led me to wonder whether I was just too soft for Ethan. There are a lot of things he does not like, including getting dental work and sleeping in his own bed by himself. The dentist got it done, and Ethan said thank you. Perhaps gift incentives and the happy face chart need to be revived. A game plan needs to be in place. I would love to keep Ethan in my bed but he needs to be tougher. Ethan needs to learn resilience - to bounce back emotionally on his own, after knowing and accepting that sleeping on his own is important because he will have to deal with all the craziness of life on his own without succumbing to fears and running to mommy and daddy whenever he encounters unpleasant experiences. I hope I am on the right track in the way I think. I don't want to pamper him, or Artimus. The world is not so loving and forgiving. It's my job to prepare them. Wish me luck, once again. I hope Ethan will thank me when he is older.
It's the fifth year that I have been struggling with where Ethan should be sleeping, with the last two years being at war to put him to sleep in his own bed. Today, at the dentist, I realized he really could sleep in his own bed, except for my weakness. Poor Ethan had an infection discovered by his dentist on a regular visit. The x-ray showed that the best thing to do is extraction. So Ethan was totally taken by surprise. I could understand the pain and anger. It appears from the dentist that he was more difficult than most, and he screamed at the expectation of pain, as if he was in pain. That made it even more difficult to decipher whether he needed more "sleeping drugs" for his mouth. At one point, he was so mad that he pulled my hand over and gestured that he wanted to bite me. I was really upset. After all was done, and the dentist stepped out, I explained to him that either we have more problems with all the surrounding teeth or pull just the bad one out once and for all. Ethan seemed to have understood that, because mommy had sat with him on three baby root canal over the summer, and many fillings before that. I am more sick of the dentist and the dental bill than him. When we left, he even said thank you to the dentist on his own initiative.
This whole dental experience had led me to wonder whether I was just too soft for Ethan. There are a lot of things he does not like, including getting dental work and sleeping in his own bed by himself. The dentist got it done, and Ethan said thank you. Perhaps gift incentives and the happy face chart need to be revived. A game plan needs to be in place. I would love to keep Ethan in my bed but he needs to be tougher. Ethan needs to learn resilience - to bounce back emotionally on his own, after knowing and accepting that sleeping on his own is important because he will have to deal with all the craziness of life on his own without succumbing to fears and running to mommy and daddy whenever he encounters unpleasant experiences. I hope I am on the right track in the way I think. I don't want to pamper him, or Artimus. The world is not so loving and forgiving. It's my job to prepare them. Wish me luck, once again. I hope Ethan will thank me when he is older.
Friday, October 08, 2010
Too Much Love?
It's hard to know why some kids can sleep on their own and why some just cling on to the parent's bed. After one whole year of relentless fighting with Ethan, I succumbed to his need to sleep more. He was sleeping between 7 to 9 hours a day, and he was very unpleasant to be around. He was also beginning to use other ways to get me to sleep with him. Most recently, he said to me, "If you don't sleep with me, I am taking you out of my heart." At first I was really upset. Then I realized he learned that this had the most impact so he kept on saying it. He also cried from his heart when I insisted that he needs to sleep in his own bed because he is a big boy. Is all the aggravation healthy for him and his relationship with me? This past week, I slept with them every night. He slept through the night and he woke up refreshed and happy. Is this too much love for Ethan and Artimus? I also realized that Artimus cries in the middle of the night from bad dreams. It happened last night. I hope this is not chronic. I held her tight and kissed her until she fell back asleep. They are so cute to sleep with. I think we really only needed a full size bed, not a king size.
On the nights I have them, I would naturally fall asleep with them. The kiddies are so exhausting. On nights like tonight, the apartment seems so big and empty. I also need some noise. I miss their ever incessant voices and laughter, their discovery of yet one more ways of playing the same innocuous toys. Their curiosity and love for adventure never fail to uplift my spirit. When someone said to me today that she does not like children, I could not relate. I could only hope that she'll have the chance to experience the joy of parenthood.
Hope all my readers/friends are doing well.
-JW
It's hard to know why some kids can sleep on their own and why some just cling on to the parent's bed. After one whole year of relentless fighting with Ethan, I succumbed to his need to sleep more. He was sleeping between 7 to 9 hours a day, and he was very unpleasant to be around. He was also beginning to use other ways to get me to sleep with him. Most recently, he said to me, "If you don't sleep with me, I am taking you out of my heart." At first I was really upset. Then I realized he learned that this had the most impact so he kept on saying it. He also cried from his heart when I insisted that he needs to sleep in his own bed because he is a big boy. Is all the aggravation healthy for him and his relationship with me? This past week, I slept with them every night. He slept through the night and he woke up refreshed and happy. Is this too much love for Ethan and Artimus? I also realized that Artimus cries in the middle of the night from bad dreams. It happened last night. I hope this is not chronic. I held her tight and kissed her until she fell back asleep. They are so cute to sleep with. I think we really only needed a full size bed, not a king size.
On the nights I have them, I would naturally fall asleep with them. The kiddies are so exhausting. On nights like tonight, the apartment seems so big and empty. I also need some noise. I miss their ever incessant voices and laughter, their discovery of yet one more ways of playing the same innocuous toys. Their curiosity and love for adventure never fail to uplift my spirit. When someone said to me today that she does not like children, I could not relate. I could only hope that she'll have the chance to experience the joy of parenthood.
Hope all my readers/friends are doing well.
-JW
Friday, September 03, 2010
Experiences
Ethan is the photographer these days. He captures the most natural moments, especially Artimus' free spirit. There is nothing more lifting after a hard day than to hear their happy jolly voices talking about the simplest of issues, or getting musically happy when a new item is bought for them because they are getting "older".
Yesterday, I had a terrible night running about trying to buy the right booster seats for them while they have dinner at my mom's. When they got to see the boxes open that night, they got singyi about their new car seats. It was those laughter and excitement that made all the troubles worth the while. My darlings are growing up!
Ethan is the photographer these days. He captures the most natural moments, especially Artimus' free spirit. There is nothing more lifting after a hard day than to hear their happy jolly voices talking about the simplest of issues, or getting musically happy when a new item is bought for them because they are getting "older".
Yesterday, I had a terrible night running about trying to buy the right booster seats for them while they have dinner at my mom's. When they got to see the boxes open that night, they got singyi about their new car seats. It was those laughter and excitement that made all the troubles worth the while. My darlings are growing up!
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Peach Picking
Good memories can be medicine for hard times. So we try to keep traditions that bring back good memories. Peach-picking is one thing we did for the past three summers, so we know that they remember the farm - the same one we visit every summer. And each year it's a different experience for everyone. This year, they walked and picked their own peaches (well, pretty much picked their own peaches), played in the same familiar playground, and splashed water in the same outdoor faucet. Daddy loved doing these outdoor type things, which I must take credit for discovering the place and came up with the idea that we should visit every summer. Big handsome daddy is good at recreating good memories. I guess I just have to keep discovering fun places to go.
Hope you are doing well and enjoying the summer.
JW
Good memories can be medicine for hard times. So we try to keep traditions that bring back good memories. Peach-picking is one thing we did for the past three summers, so we know that they remember the farm - the same one we visit every summer. And each year it's a different experience for everyone. This year, they walked and picked their own peaches (well, pretty much picked their own peaches), played in the same familiar playground, and splashed water in the same outdoor faucet. Daddy loved doing these outdoor type things, which I must take credit for discovering the place and came up with the idea that we should visit every summer. Big handsome daddy is good at recreating good memories. I guess I just have to keep discovering fun places to go.
Hope you are doing well and enjoying the summer.
JW
Saturday, August 07, 2010
Fresh Air and Greens
We took off to the country early this morning, throwing into the bag just barely what we needed. It must be the weather, or Artimus and Ethan really grew up to be more pleasant by the day. We had a calm and easy ride up to the house we were invited to ... by Ethan's admirer. Good looks do help, even at age 4. I couldn't believe my eyes as I saw him acting like a man with a girlfriend. He drove this pink barbie jeep with just one arm, and his "girlfriend" insisted on being the passenger. They even sat by themselves under an apple tree, just chating and laughing away. By night, Ethan wanted to sleep with her, who sleeps with her sister and mom in one big bed. I allowed it, knowing that he'll crawl back to my bed at some point in the night. Well, he couldn't fall asleep at all ... ah, what a surprise! In my arms, he fell asleep like a baby. In fact, both Artimus and Ethan were dead asleep by the time they fell asleep. They had so much fun, they went to bed very happy. Perhaps, that's what they needed - friendship and lots of fun things to do in wide open spaces. We were also in great company - a relaxed couple with beautiful girls.
The fresh air is giving me therapy from the busy rush that define most of my days. Ethan and Artimus are also such pleasant and fun children to spend time with. I am so happy today just spending time with them, watching them run about happily just being kids. It's also relaxing to share with friends I really like. JK is not here with us. This is the first trip with the kids by myself. It's not so bad. In fact, it's great!
The fresh air is giving me therapy from the busy rush that define most of my days. Ethan and Artimus are also such pleasant and fun children to spend time with. I am so happy today just spending time with them, watching them run about happily just being kids. It's also relaxing to share with friends I really like. JK is not here with us. This is the first trip with the kids by myself. It's not so bad. In fact, it's great!
Wednesday, August 04, 2010
Separation Anxiety
Finally, I got a business trip that gave me a legitimate reason to be away from the kids. This means a lot - sleep and rest are among the most craved. But I ended up not getting much of both by most standards. It's a real working trip and I am up late doing work, and only squeezing in dinner with a colleague if time permitted. I feel good on the one hand, and lonely on the other. I miss these little creatures. Their everyday little troubles and joys filled my life after work, and these troubles gave me giggles. Ethan's latest anguish is Alex, his friend since two, doesn't play with him sometimes and told him he was not invited to the birthday party. Ethan claimed Alex' words hurt his feelings, and Alex "is not his friend anymore." Then Ethan turned around and told Artimus that she was a bad girl because she wanted to wash his hair and he didn't like that. What happened next? Artimus came crying to me, "He hurt my feelings. I want Ethan to say sorry to me." Sounds familiar? I guess we adults behave the same way, but with more sophisticated words and style. I miss these little creatures - they love so fully, with so much purity and raw feelings. Who could deny love? When I called them tonight, which is the 3rd night since I have been away, they were busy telling me what they were doing (playing race cars or something). They did not even ask when I'll be back! It looks like they could live without me ... at least for a few days.
On another note, last weekend we were at Sesame Place. It was great! Who could resist water splashing all over you on a hot summer day? Oh, Daddy got me to go on the roller coaster ride with Artimus, because she was of the right height this year. Smarty Ethan insisted that he wanted to sit next to Daddy, who he thinks could "protect" him. This was a kiddy amusement park, with a kiddy roller coaster. But I tell ya, I thought I was going to fall out of that seat, with my little Artimus flying out into space with me. Needless to say, I lost my voice. NEVER AGAIN!
I miss them. Can't wait for them to sneak into my bed in the middle of the night when I get back. Feeling their little bodies next to mine makes me feel ... love.
JW
Finally, I got a business trip that gave me a legitimate reason to be away from the kids. This means a lot - sleep and rest are among the most craved. But I ended up not getting much of both by most standards. It's a real working trip and I am up late doing work, and only squeezing in dinner with a colleague if time permitted. I feel good on the one hand, and lonely on the other. I miss these little creatures. Their everyday little troubles and joys filled my life after work, and these troubles gave me giggles. Ethan's latest anguish is Alex, his friend since two, doesn't play with him sometimes and told him he was not invited to the birthday party. Ethan claimed Alex' words hurt his feelings, and Alex "is not his friend anymore." Then Ethan turned around and told Artimus that she was a bad girl because she wanted to wash his hair and he didn't like that. What happened next? Artimus came crying to me, "He hurt my feelings. I want Ethan to say sorry to me." Sounds familiar? I guess we adults behave the same way, but with more sophisticated words and style. I miss these little creatures - they love so fully, with so much purity and raw feelings. Who could deny love? When I called them tonight, which is the 3rd night since I have been away, they were busy telling me what they were doing (playing race cars or something). They did not even ask when I'll be back! It looks like they could live without me ... at least for a few days.
On another note, last weekend we were at Sesame Place. It was great! Who could resist water splashing all over you on a hot summer day? Oh, Daddy got me to go on the roller coaster ride with Artimus, because she was of the right height this year. Smarty Ethan insisted that he wanted to sit next to Daddy, who he thinks could "protect" him. This was a kiddy amusement park, with a kiddy roller coaster. But I tell ya, I thought I was going to fall out of that seat, with my little Artimus flying out into space with me. Needless to say, I lost my voice. NEVER AGAIN!
I miss them. Can't wait for them to sneak into my bed in the middle of the night when I get back. Feeling their little bodies next to mine makes me feel ... love.
JW
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Balance of Work and Family
Ahh, what's that? Even though JK is still in Utah, I worked last Sunday and I worked late two days in a row, getting home at almost 8:00 o'clock. My children are truly blessed with a good grand-mother. She looks after them with patience and joy even though she is tired. I am not so blessed because there is so much work that the work is spilling into my time with the kids. Poor Artimus has been coughing pretty badly in the last two nights and there is no medicine for a 3.5 year old. So we both had very little sleep. (She had no fever so I am just going to keep an eye on her.) I am so tired. If JK doesn't return soon, I think I'll crash. Thank God for having a maid, despite only a few hours a week. She did the laundry today and Artimus will have her own underwears rather than her brother's. I really don't know how other single parents who couldn't afford a maid get by and stay sane, let alone raising healthy and happy kids.
As soon as the craziness at work is done, I'll be scheming how to keep TV to a minimum and make reading and creating beautiful artwork our routine. I really believe that TV makes kids less able to control their temperament, in addition to other important side effects like not as smart or social as kids who do not watch a lot of TV.
Hope you are doing well, and enjoying the sun. Just wish the rain comes already so the humidity goes down.
Ahh, what's that? Even though JK is still in Utah, I worked last Sunday and I worked late two days in a row, getting home at almost 8:00 o'clock. My children are truly blessed with a good grand-mother. She looks after them with patience and joy even though she is tired. I am not so blessed because there is so much work that the work is spilling into my time with the kids. Poor Artimus has been coughing pretty badly in the last two nights and there is no medicine for a 3.5 year old. So we both had very little sleep. (She had no fever so I am just going to keep an eye on her.) I am so tired. If JK doesn't return soon, I think I'll crash. Thank God for having a maid, despite only a few hours a week. She did the laundry today and Artimus will have her own underwears rather than her brother's. I really don't know how other single parents who couldn't afford a maid get by and stay sane, let alone raising healthy and happy kids.
As soon as the craziness at work is done, I'll be scheming how to keep TV to a minimum and make reading and creating beautiful artwork our routine. I really believe that TV makes kids less able to control their temperament, in addition to other important side effects like not as smart or social as kids who do not watch a lot of TV.
Hope you are doing well, and enjoying the sun. Just wish the rain comes already so the humidity goes down.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Conversations
Are kids natural comedians? JK flew to Utah for business on Sunday. He called on Tuesday night, and Artimus said to him, in her as-a-matter-of-fact way, "Daddy, I really miss you. I want you to come back in 5 minutes, okay?"
At 9:45 pm, I finally turned off the light, making good my threat that after 9:00 pm, they do not get to read any books. The CD was playing the most soothing music - the same one every night. Artimus sat up, against my other threats again opening their eyes or mouth, and said, again in her as-a-matter-of-fact way, "Mommy, I think one of my teeth fell in my throat." I said, "It's not possible so put your head back down on the pillow, NOW!" Two seconds later, she sat up, "Mommy, where is the the ball Ethan got me from the dentist?" Exasperated, I said, "I don't know. We'll look for it tomorrow. Pleeeeease close your eyes and your mouth." In response, she said, "Okay, mommy." One second later, she sat up, "Mommy, I think I found my baby. It's on my bed." The baby is her toy baby. "Great. Now sleep." I kept my eyes on the computer, ignoring them. In the darkness, and from the corner of my eyes, I saw her tossing and turning and I thought I saw her swinging her pillow around. Then she talked to herself in whispers. I had no idea what she was saying to herself. Aaaaaaaaaa! She is so cute and so exasperating! Then she rapped, and then she played with her saliva, making all sorts of noise.
Home feels like another world. It's more hectic but it's also more fun. Everyday is a different adventure!
Are kids natural comedians? JK flew to Utah for business on Sunday. He called on Tuesday night, and Artimus said to him, in her as-a-matter-of-fact way, "Daddy, I really miss you. I want you to come back in 5 minutes, okay?"
At 9:45 pm, I finally turned off the light, making good my threat that after 9:00 pm, they do not get to read any books. The CD was playing the most soothing music - the same one every night. Artimus sat up, against my other threats again opening their eyes or mouth, and said, again in her as-a-matter-of-fact way, "Mommy, I think one of my teeth fell in my throat." I said, "It's not possible so put your head back down on the pillow, NOW!" Two seconds later, she sat up, "Mommy, where is the the ball Ethan got me from the dentist?" Exasperated, I said, "I don't know. We'll look for it tomorrow. Pleeeeease close your eyes and your mouth." In response, she said, "Okay, mommy." One second later, she sat up, "Mommy, I think I found my baby. It's on my bed." The baby is her toy baby. "Great. Now sleep." I kept my eyes on the computer, ignoring them. In the darkness, and from the corner of my eyes, I saw her tossing and turning and I thought I saw her swinging her pillow around. Then she talked to herself in whispers. I had no idea what she was saying to herself. Aaaaaaaaaa! She is so cute and so exasperating! Then she rapped, and then she played with her saliva, making all sorts of noise.
Home feels like another world. It's more hectic but it's also more fun. Everyday is a different adventure!
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Little Obsessions
When Ethan was 1 1/2, and he was introduced to buses, he would demand to have his own Metrocard, or he'll find mine or JK's in our bags. He ate, bathed, pooped, and slept with them. Yes, more than one was held in his hands at all times. He even went to school with a couple of them. I used to give a few spares to the day care teacher in case Ethan loses them or was throwing a tandrum. These Metrocards did wonders.
Now a days, it's no longer Metrocards but little rubber duckies in different decorations, or a balloon, or little toy cars - anything that can be held in his hands. These days, he lug around several little toy cars or trains for comfort. Artimus started doing that as well, They even began to role play with whatever toy they have in their hands. It's hilarious to watch them play together because they would be all into banging, shooting, and stuff dying. Then Artimus would burst out that it's time to get married. I think I'll have to record this one day.
When Ethan was 1 1/2, and he was introduced to buses, he would demand to have his own Metrocard, or he'll find mine or JK's in our bags. He ate, bathed, pooped, and slept with them. Yes, more than one was held in his hands at all times. He even went to school with a couple of them. I used to give a few spares to the day care teacher in case Ethan loses them or was throwing a tandrum. These Metrocards did wonders.
Now a days, it's no longer Metrocards but little rubber duckies in different decorations, or a balloon, or little toy cars - anything that can be held in his hands. These days, he lug around several little toy cars or trains for comfort. Artimus started doing that as well, They even began to role play with whatever toy they have in their hands. It's hilarious to watch them play together because they would be all into banging, shooting, and stuff dying. Then Artimus would burst out that it's time to get married. I think I'll have to record this one day.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Memories
Until the last week or so, I did not realize Ethan had such strong memories for some of his experiences. The other day he reminded me of a bus breaking down on our way home, and we had to get off and hop on another bus. He must have been 2 or may be 3 years old. Then tonight, while I was trying to get them to sleep before 10:00 pm, he went to his bedroom closet and found the boogie board I had bought him when we went to Bermuda two and a half years ago, just a few days before he turned two. He remembered exactly what the board was for and that he had used it "a long time ago" in the water.
I think it's time to lock my door when I change my clothes. He has not been respecting my rule that mommy needs her privacy. Ahh, he is growing up. I can't believe he is not a baby anymore.
In school, he is learning all sorts of stuff from his friends. He demonstrated to Artimus how to make a gun using his fingers. Then he tells me all sorts of truths (i.e. "Do you know that a penguin jumps into the icy cold water and swim?" "Do you know that the birds sing in the morning to wake us all up?" "Do you know that when I cry that means I am really tired?" etc etc). This is truly an amazing age.
I am going to withhold stories of my early morning drama with Ethan everyday, which he understands he is the one responsible for our arguments. I can't get him to go to school on time because he knowingly refuses to put on his shoes etc. He is growing up. It will be nice if he would just get dressed in time in the morning by himself and head to school without whining.
Until the last week or so, I did not realize Ethan had such strong memories for some of his experiences. The other day he reminded me of a bus breaking down on our way home, and we had to get off and hop on another bus. He must have been 2 or may be 3 years old. Then tonight, while I was trying to get them to sleep before 10:00 pm, he went to his bedroom closet and found the boogie board I had bought him when we went to Bermuda two and a half years ago, just a few days before he turned two. He remembered exactly what the board was for and that he had used it "a long time ago" in the water.
I think it's time to lock my door when I change my clothes. He has not been respecting my rule that mommy needs her privacy. Ahh, he is growing up. I can't believe he is not a baby anymore.
In school, he is learning all sorts of stuff from his friends. He demonstrated to Artimus how to make a gun using his fingers. Then he tells me all sorts of truths (i.e. "Do you know that a penguin jumps into the icy cold water and swim?" "Do you know that the birds sing in the morning to wake us all up?" "Do you know that when I cry that means I am really tired?" etc etc). This is truly an amazing age.
I am going to withhold stories of my early morning drama with Ethan everyday, which he understands he is the one responsible for our arguments. I can't get him to go to school on time because he knowingly refuses to put on his shoes etc. He is growing up. It will be nice if he would just get dressed in time in the morning by himself and head to school without whining.
Friday, April 30, 2010
Love and Fights
We love in the morning and we engage in battles at night. That seems to be the natural cycle these days. Every morning, I find them in my bed calmly snuggled close to me. At night, they want me to hold their hands so they would fall asleep in their own beds. I counter with either I stay in the room and type on the computer, or I leave. Tonight, Ethan refused to close his eyes unless I let him grab my feet. Artimus demanded that I hold her hand while she falls asleep. I told them the rules, counted to three, and their eyes were still looking at me. So I got up and left the room. She cried. Ethan just quietly walked over to my room, sat on my bed and looked at me with his very tired eyes. I repeated to him the rules. He agreed. We went back to Artimus who was still crying in her bed. She agreed to stay in her bed and sleep while I type on the computer. After I started typing, the whole time ignoring them, out of the blue she said, "Sorry mommy," and started crying again. Aaah, so sensitive! I went over and kissed her good night for the one millionth time. Only after all this fuss that they fell sound asleep, at 10:55 pm. Thank God it's Friday night!
I still don't have the hearts to just walk out of the room and force them to fall asleep on their own. I am afraid that by leaving the room and letting them cry it out would only mean that I am not recognizing that at night, children have unreasonable fear of monsters. Adults can rationalize it all they want. The truth remains that we can all remember those early days when we fear the dark or some unknown forces we could not explain.
Anyway, the summer is coming near. It's a good time to push them further into independent at night.
Hope you had a beautiful April.
-JW
We love in the morning and we engage in battles at night. That seems to be the natural cycle these days. Every morning, I find them in my bed calmly snuggled close to me. At night, they want me to hold their hands so they would fall asleep in their own beds. I counter with either I stay in the room and type on the computer, or I leave. Tonight, Ethan refused to close his eyes unless I let him grab my feet. Artimus demanded that I hold her hand while she falls asleep. I told them the rules, counted to three, and their eyes were still looking at me. So I got up and left the room. She cried. Ethan just quietly walked over to my room, sat on my bed and looked at me with his very tired eyes. I repeated to him the rules. He agreed. We went back to Artimus who was still crying in her bed. She agreed to stay in her bed and sleep while I type on the computer. After I started typing, the whole time ignoring them, out of the blue she said, "Sorry mommy," and started crying again. Aaah, so sensitive! I went over and kissed her good night for the one millionth time. Only after all this fuss that they fell sound asleep, at 10:55 pm. Thank God it's Friday night!
I still don't have the hearts to just walk out of the room and force them to fall asleep on their own. I am afraid that by leaving the room and letting them cry it out would only mean that I am not recognizing that at night, children have unreasonable fear of monsters. Adults can rationalize it all they want. The truth remains that we can all remember those early days when we fear the dark or some unknown forces we could not explain.
Anyway, the summer is coming near. It's a good time to push them further into independent at night.
Hope you had a beautiful April.
-JW
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Gifted and Talented? Or Pure Luck?
I am referring to that test that four year olds take to get into a gifted and talented program in NYC. While I think Ethan is a smart kid and above average, I often find him to be wild. He has obsessions that drive me nuts. He is also a very passionate kid who gets attach to friends and can't stop talking about those friends. For awhile I thought he was just going to be a follower in life because he was always talking about what another kid did in school and that he wants to do that too. Then there were times he shocks me with the things he can think about and articulate.
Well, last night, I got an email from the DOE saying he qualified to apply to a gifted and talented program. I was happy to know that but forgot my password to get into the system to check out his score. So this morning, when I saw the score, I almost fell off my chair. My son is gifted and talented? May be all these headache and heartache are worth it? May be we have hope? I called the daddy immediately. He also couldn't believe it because he was convinced that while Ethan was smart, he was no top-of-the-class of the 4 year olds.
So we are pleasantly surprised. But people tell me smart kids are expensive. Anyway, a stubborn kid has a stubborn mom - I love the school he is in now so he is staying. Daddy may think differently. A part of me is wondering if I should at least do some due diligence by visiting the nearest gifted and talented school. The application deadline is next Friday. There is just not enough time in a day to do all that one must do.
Hope your day is as exciting but not so filled with dilemma.
-JW
I am referring to that test that four year olds take to get into a gifted and talented program in NYC. While I think Ethan is a smart kid and above average, I often find him to be wild. He has obsessions that drive me nuts. He is also a very passionate kid who gets attach to friends and can't stop talking about those friends. For awhile I thought he was just going to be a follower in life because he was always talking about what another kid did in school and that he wants to do that too. Then there were times he shocks me with the things he can think about and articulate.
Well, last night, I got an email from the DOE saying he qualified to apply to a gifted and talented program. I was happy to know that but forgot my password to get into the system to check out his score. So this morning, when I saw the score, I almost fell off my chair. My son is gifted and talented? May be all these headache and heartache are worth it? May be we have hope? I called the daddy immediately. He also couldn't believe it because he was convinced that while Ethan was smart, he was no top-of-the-class of the 4 year olds.
So we are pleasantly surprised. But people tell me smart kids are expensive. Anyway, a stubborn kid has a stubborn mom - I love the school he is in now so he is staying. Daddy may think differently. A part of me is wondering if I should at least do some due diligence by visiting the nearest gifted and talented school. The application deadline is next Friday. There is just not enough time in a day to do all that one must do.
Hope your day is as exciting but not so filled with dilemma.
-JW
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Mother Guilt
I often wonder if I am doing my best for my children when it comes to schooling. Ethan is in the school of my dream - the dual language school in the lower east side. But I have not been able to do much homework with him because there is just not enough time after I get home from work. I still cook. Then there is cleaning the dishes. By the time we get to the bedroom, it's 8:30 pm. After a book or two, a bath, and brushing teeth, it's 9:30. Needless to say, by that point, I am in a frantic mode to shut the lights and force them to close their eyes. Ethan has been able to fall asleep faster these days. I guess he really resists the nap in school. Artimus, on the other hand, has been the one unable to fall asleep.
All said, there is just not enough time to do all that must be done and do school work. I guess it's all routine. Our current routine is just not meeting his academic needs. His Chinese teacher has been sending him notes to bring home that said he needs to practice his pronunciation and writing his Chinese characters. What can I do? I have a full time job? I need to think hard and get myself disciplined. The problem is I love to sleep and I really enjoy a freshly cooked dinner. Perhaps with school age children, and being a single mom, this just has to change.
On another note, when we were having dinner tonight, and the soup was still being boiled, I told them that the smell of soup reminds me of home because my mother always made soup. Ethan immediately told me that the smell of soup reminds him of mommy. I was so happy I think I was in tears. It's true, I rarely ever have to remind him to drink his soup.
The weather is getting warmer. I hope everyone is enjoying the sun. There are those with spring fever, myself included, who seem to be dressing for weather 20 degrees warmer. The coats and jackets are just too heavy and depressing. It's time to stay out in the park all day! Don't you agree?
I often wonder if I am doing my best for my children when it comes to schooling. Ethan is in the school of my dream - the dual language school in the lower east side. But I have not been able to do much homework with him because there is just not enough time after I get home from work. I still cook. Then there is cleaning the dishes. By the time we get to the bedroom, it's 8:30 pm. After a book or two, a bath, and brushing teeth, it's 9:30. Needless to say, by that point, I am in a frantic mode to shut the lights and force them to close their eyes. Ethan has been able to fall asleep faster these days. I guess he really resists the nap in school. Artimus, on the other hand, has been the one unable to fall asleep.
All said, there is just not enough time to do all that must be done and do school work. I guess it's all routine. Our current routine is just not meeting his academic needs. His Chinese teacher has been sending him notes to bring home that said he needs to practice his pronunciation and writing his Chinese characters. What can I do? I have a full time job? I need to think hard and get myself disciplined. The problem is I love to sleep and I really enjoy a freshly cooked dinner. Perhaps with school age children, and being a single mom, this just has to change.
On another note, when we were having dinner tonight, and the soup was still being boiled, I told them that the smell of soup reminds me of home because my mother always made soup. Ethan immediately told me that the smell of soup reminds him of mommy. I was so happy I think I was in tears. It's true, I rarely ever have to remind him to drink his soup.
The weather is getting warmer. I hope everyone is enjoying the sun. There are those with spring fever, myself included, who seem to be dressing for weather 20 degrees warmer. The coats and jackets are just too heavy and depressing. It's time to stay out in the park all day! Don't you agree?
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Practice Makes Perfect
Ethan is now a pro at his new scooter. We scoot everywhere. He promised he would help me practice with my new scooter. For the life of me, I just find walking faster and less strenuous. I also realized I am not very good at balancing. So what do I hear when I start walking with the scooter? "Mommy, practice makes perfect! You have to get back on the scooter!" Ahh, I wanted to talk him out of telling me how much fun it is to scoot but I am thinking hard before I say a word. For a mother who constantly tells her kids to get up and try again, and practice-makes-perfect, what would he learn if I tell him I am just not good at scooting and I don't have to like or be good at everything? I think for a 4 year old, it's pretty confusing. So I don't think I have a choice. I have to learn to use that scooter this summer. I'll just practice till I can do it. What was I thinking when I told him we'll scoot around town together this summer? Aaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!
Ethan is now a pro at his new scooter. We scoot everywhere. He promised he would help me practice with my new scooter. For the life of me, I just find walking faster and less strenuous. I also realized I am not very good at balancing. So what do I hear when I start walking with the scooter? "Mommy, practice makes perfect! You have to get back on the scooter!" Ahh, I wanted to talk him out of telling me how much fun it is to scoot but I am thinking hard before I say a word. For a mother who constantly tells her kids to get up and try again, and practice-makes-perfect, what would he learn if I tell him I am just not good at scooting and I don't have to like or be good at everything? I think for a 4 year old, it's pretty confusing. So I don't think I have a choice. I have to learn to use that scooter this summer. I'll just practice till I can do it. What was I thinking when I told him we'll scoot around town together this summer? Aaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
My Smart Little Sweet Thing
I am working late again today. I mean really late, say after 11:00 pm. I figure if I work late I'll miss seeing the kids so I might as well work very late to get more writing done.
I called home at 9:30 pm, just before the light goes out and they have to hit the bed. The first thing that came out of Artimus was, "Mommy, I want you to come home and sleep in your own bed." Well, where else could I go? I promised her I would not sleep in my office, and I would sleep in my own bed. Ethan asked what I was doing. I explained that I have work I must finish. Then we "hugged" and "kissed" over the phone before we hung up. It's a bedtime ritual that I can't let them forget.
Artimus and Ethan are really growing up. I am learning that they could live without me, even if they really miss me. This is a good thing.
I am working late again today. I mean really late, say after 11:00 pm. I figure if I work late I'll miss seeing the kids so I might as well work very late to get more writing done.
I called home at 9:30 pm, just before the light goes out and they have to hit the bed. The first thing that came out of Artimus was, "Mommy, I want you to come home and sleep in your own bed." Well, where else could I go? I promised her I would not sleep in my office, and I would sleep in my own bed. Ethan asked what I was doing. I explained that I have work I must finish. Then we "hugged" and "kissed" over the phone before we hung up. It's a bedtime ritual that I can't let them forget.
Artimus and Ethan are really growing up. I am learning that they could live without me, even if they really miss me. This is a good thing.
Tuesday, April 06, 2010
Ahh, What?
Kids can say the most illogical thing. Last night, after requiring Artimus to pee before she goes to sleep, and after she pee'ed unwillingly, she cried and said, "I want to put the pee back in my butt." Ahh, okay. That's a new one for trying to avoid going to bed. I told her to drink a glass of water and the pee will be right back in her butt.
The day before JK and I actually tried to put the pee back into her butt. We were so serious, Artimus couldn't stop laughing as we were "trying" to pour the urine from the potty back into her butt.
Kids are work!
Kids can say the most illogical thing. Last night, after requiring Artimus to pee before she goes to sleep, and after she pee'ed unwillingly, she cried and said, "I want to put the pee back in my butt." Ahh, okay. That's a new one for trying to avoid going to bed. I told her to drink a glass of water and the pee will be right back in her butt.
The day before JK and I actually tried to put the pee back into her butt. We were so serious, Artimus couldn't stop laughing as we were "trying" to pour the urine from the potty back into her butt.
Kids are work!
Sunday, April 04, 2010
Ethan vs. Artimus
While Ethan couldn't take his eyes off his new mini razor scooter, and wants to give away his Radio Flyer scooter, Artimus couldn't let go of her pink scooter grandma bought her last summer. Artimus asked me to return her green mini razor scooter. This is a pretty amazing experience - my 3 year old chose a difficult-to-control and heavy scooter over an extremely well-designed, fast, and light scooter, all for her love of the scooter she always had. One may question she just may not know how good the new scooter is. But Ethan has been boasting about the speed, light weight, and stability of the mini razor since he got it Wednesday night. Even Ethan is begging her to just try her mini scooter so they can play together.
Another possibility is that Artimus is just too proud to accept something she did not earn. Unlike Ethan, she never got 42 happy faces for a continuous seven-day period, which was required before she could open the box to her new scooter. Artimus eyed it frequently. So after two days, I subcumbed and opened the box anyway. But she did not budge. She still insisted that I return it. Ahhhhhh, my sweet little darling is driving me crazy!
My regular razor scooter is arriving in the mail soon. I am hoping to scoot down the streets in the neighborhood with my two little ones on warm sunny days. May be we'll scoot into friends?
While Ethan couldn't take his eyes off his new mini razor scooter, and wants to give away his Radio Flyer scooter, Artimus couldn't let go of her pink scooter grandma bought her last summer. Artimus asked me to return her green mini razor scooter. This is a pretty amazing experience - my 3 year old chose a difficult-to-control and heavy scooter over an extremely well-designed, fast, and light scooter, all for her love of the scooter she always had. One may question she just may not know how good the new scooter is. But Ethan has been boasting about the speed, light weight, and stability of the mini razor since he got it Wednesday night. Even Ethan is begging her to just try her mini scooter so they can play together.
Another possibility is that Artimus is just too proud to accept something she did not earn. Unlike Ethan, she never got 42 happy faces for a continuous seven-day period, which was required before she could open the box to her new scooter. Artimus eyed it frequently. So after two days, I subcumbed and opened the box anyway. But she did not budge. She still insisted that I return it. Ahhhhhh, my sweet little darling is driving me crazy!
My regular razor scooter is arriving in the mail soon. I am hoping to scoot down the streets in the neighborhood with my two little ones on warm sunny days. May be we'll scoot into friends?
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Anxious Anticipation
Do you still remember the days when you wait anxiously, with all the excitement one can have, for something to be delivered? And you were right there at home waiting for it? As much as it was exciting to anticipate such a delivery, you must agree it was torturous too.
Ethan earned his razor mini kick scooter and I mistakenly told him that it would be delivered today. Well, the scooter is in transit to be delivered today. The mistake was in telling him because he has been at the door every few minutes checking if the delivery arrived. The babysitter couldn't even convince him to go out for a bike ride. When I called a few minutes ago, Ethan's first words were, "How many more minutes, Mommy? Is it here yet?" Huh, what should I say? My poor little boy. I told him the package won't get there any sooner just because he is at the door wishing that it arrives. I told him to just go to the playground in the back of the building and have fun. Ethan said he'll have fun at home with his trains and train tracks. Then he couldn't wait to get off the phone so he can go back to door-watching.
I hope the scooter arrives as scheduled. Otherwise, Ethan will bug me till I want to jump out the window.
Is there a better word to describe Ethan's feelings than anxious anticipation?
Do you still remember the days when you wait anxiously, with all the excitement one can have, for something to be delivered? And you were right there at home waiting for it? As much as it was exciting to anticipate such a delivery, you must agree it was torturous too.
Ethan earned his razor mini kick scooter and I mistakenly told him that it would be delivered today. Well, the scooter is in transit to be delivered today. The mistake was in telling him because he has been at the door every few minutes checking if the delivery arrived. The babysitter couldn't even convince him to go out for a bike ride. When I called a few minutes ago, Ethan's first words were, "How many more minutes, Mommy? Is it here yet?" Huh, what should I say? My poor little boy. I told him the package won't get there any sooner just because he is at the door wishing that it arrives. I told him to just go to the playground in the back of the building and have fun. Ethan said he'll have fun at home with his trains and train tracks. Then he couldn't wait to get off the phone so he can go back to door-watching.
I hope the scooter arrives as scheduled. Otherwise, Ethan will bug me till I want to jump out the window.
Is there a better word to describe Ethan's feelings than anxious anticipation?
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Incentives
Human nature has the best of us -- desires for "stuff" can truly be the driving force for achievements. At the age of 4, it's the Razor Mini Kick Scooter, and Ethan is very close to earning it. Unknown to him, I already ordered two, one for him and one for Artimus. These little scooters are not the least cheap. But they could do wonders. To earn this scooter, Ethan had to, among the seven critical items, (1) stop using hurtful words when he gets angry, (2) sleep through the night by himself in his own bed, and (3) get dress by himself everyday. He had to get six out of seven "happy faces" each day for seven days straight to earn it. So far, after seven days, he had made marked improvements. And for two days in a row, he even stopped crawling into my bed until after 6:00 am. If he gets seven happy faces today as well as tomorrow, you will see him riding that scooter down Grand Street with a happy proud face. In fact, you might see me, Artimus and Ethan each riding our own scooter down Grand Street on a sunny day. Yup, mommy got a scooter too. They can't be the only ones having fun!
After a year of struggles, the Razor Mini Kick Scooter turned out to be the best motivator for change.
Oh, in case you are wondering, Artimus has no problem with the big issues, like sleeping. She has the little issues like whining and not wanting to brush her teeth or get out of the bathtub. Interestingly, I'll have to hide her scooter until she comes close to earning it. Right now, she is barely getting five happy faces a day.
Human nature has the best of us -- desires for "stuff" can truly be the driving force for achievements. At the age of 4, it's the Razor Mini Kick Scooter, and Ethan is very close to earning it. Unknown to him, I already ordered two, one for him and one for Artimus. These little scooters are not the least cheap. But they could do wonders. To earn this scooter, Ethan had to, among the seven critical items, (1) stop using hurtful words when he gets angry, (2) sleep through the night by himself in his own bed, and (3) get dress by himself everyday. He had to get six out of seven "happy faces" each day for seven days straight to earn it. So far, after seven days, he had made marked improvements. And for two days in a row, he even stopped crawling into my bed until after 6:00 am. If he gets seven happy faces today as well as tomorrow, you will see him riding that scooter down Grand Street with a happy proud face. In fact, you might see me, Artimus and Ethan each riding our own scooter down Grand Street on a sunny day. Yup, mommy got a scooter too. They can't be the only ones having fun!
After a year of struggles, the Razor Mini Kick Scooter turned out to be the best motivator for change.
Oh, in case you are wondering, Artimus has no problem with the big issues, like sleeping. She has the little issues like whining and not wanting to brush her teeth or get out of the bathtub. Interestingly, I'll have to hide her scooter until she comes close to earning it. Right now, she is barely getting five happy faces a day.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Single Mom and Single Dad
After about three months of waiting for the divorce papers to pass through the bureaucratic machinary, JK and I finally got the Judgment of Divorce. It's in the County Clerk's Office. It's about another year if I want a copy mailed to me. It's just $8 if I go pick it up tomorrow. Divorce is never easy.
I am running there to get a copy because I have to change my health insurance so the kids can see their pediatricians again. The two Artimus and Ethan have been visiting since birth are really old timers. The new one Ethan and I visited last Friday didn't seem to know her stuff. Ethan was referred to two specialists. Such was never the case before.
Now, Mom and Dad are both single. What does that mean? I have yet to find out. It's a journey full of hope ... or, may be today's weather seems to make me see everything more positively.
After about three months of waiting for the divorce papers to pass through the bureaucratic machinary, JK and I finally got the Judgment of Divorce. It's in the County Clerk's Office. It's about another year if I want a copy mailed to me. It's just $8 if I go pick it up tomorrow. Divorce is never easy.
I am running there to get a copy because I have to change my health insurance so the kids can see their pediatricians again. The two Artimus and Ethan have been visiting since birth are really old timers. The new one Ethan and I visited last Friday didn't seem to know her stuff. Ethan was referred to two specialists. Such was never the case before.
Now, Mom and Dad are both single. What does that mean? I have yet to find out. It's a journey full of hope ... or, may be today's weather seems to make me see everything more positively.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Parent-Teacher Conference
Ethan is doing well in school, according to his teachers. The Chinese teacher, who speaks no English, said that Ethan loves to talk and talks too much in class. She also encourages students to speak only Mandarin in class but Ethan is talking too much in English. She wants me to be aware of this problem. I don't see what I can do to change this except to mention to Ethan that I am aware of his being a chatter box in class. Then the Chinese teacher noted that Ethan has the inclination to color and draw with black and other dark colors. She said that's a sign that Ethan is not happy and he is thinking about things. I thought that was an interesting observation.
The English teacher, and her assistant, was more upbeat about Ethan. They said that he is not just a follower, and that he sometimes enjoy taking the lead when he plays with other kids. They were quite pleased with his progress because he apologizes when he is told that he did something wrong. In particular, he used to hate holding hands with his partner Sally. He would either refuse to hold her hand or he would squeeze her hand really hard so that Sally would go running to the teachers. Now, they said, with relief, Ethan doesn't do that as frequently. The main teacher said that she has high expectations from Ethan because he is one of the few in the class who has a large amount of vocabulary.
So, not so bad! I just have to work on his sleep and his ability to control words that comes out of his month ... yeah, a long story.
Ethan is doing well in school, according to his teachers. The Chinese teacher, who speaks no English, said that Ethan loves to talk and talks too much in class. She also encourages students to speak only Mandarin in class but Ethan is talking too much in English. She wants me to be aware of this problem. I don't see what I can do to change this except to mention to Ethan that I am aware of his being a chatter box in class. Then the Chinese teacher noted that Ethan has the inclination to color and draw with black and other dark colors. She said that's a sign that Ethan is not happy and he is thinking about things. I thought that was an interesting observation.
The English teacher, and her assistant, was more upbeat about Ethan. They said that he is not just a follower, and that he sometimes enjoy taking the lead when he plays with other kids. They were quite pleased with his progress because he apologizes when he is told that he did something wrong. In particular, he used to hate holding hands with his partner Sally. He would either refuse to hold her hand or he would squeeze her hand really hard so that Sally would go running to the teachers. Now, they said, with relief, Ethan doesn't do that as frequently. The main teacher said that she has high expectations from Ethan because he is one of the few in the class who has a large amount of vocabulary.
So, not so bad! I just have to work on his sleep and his ability to control words that comes out of his month ... yeah, a long story.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Good Person
What makes a person good?
When I was pregnant with Ethan, I was deeply concerned about the kind of person he will become. I realized that of all the things that I wanted my son to be, the most important to me was that he grows up to become a good person - one who cares about the plight of others and is a giving person. I still remember that anytime I was alone with him, I would rub my belly and whisper to him my hopes and dreams that he just be a good person.
Is being a good person, under my definition, innate? Or is it learned? If it is learned, then I must be an example of one who cares about the plight of others and is a giving person, even if that means I forgo something/someone I truly want to have. This is not easy, but to choose otherwise seems hypocritical.
I hope that one day, when I look back at all the decisions I made in life, that I can be proud to have made them. What is mine is mine. What is not will never be. What I do have are my children. They are my responsibility and a mark of my achievement. So the sleepless nights will be what they will be. I will conquer them with love.
This is an entry I share with a special friend.
What makes a person good?
When I was pregnant with Ethan, I was deeply concerned about the kind of person he will become. I realized that of all the things that I wanted my son to be, the most important to me was that he grows up to become a good person - one who cares about the plight of others and is a giving person. I still remember that anytime I was alone with him, I would rub my belly and whisper to him my hopes and dreams that he just be a good person.
Is being a good person, under my definition, innate? Or is it learned? If it is learned, then I must be an example of one who cares about the plight of others and is a giving person, even if that means I forgo something/someone I truly want to have. This is not easy, but to choose otherwise seems hypocritical.
I hope that one day, when I look back at all the decisions I made in life, that I can be proud to have made them. What is mine is mine. What is not will never be. What I do have are my children. They are my responsibility and a mark of my achievement. So the sleepless nights will be what they will be. I will conquer them with love.
This is an entry I share with a special friend.
Saturday, March 06, 2010
A Little Down
I am a little down, not the kids. There was a moment today when I just questioned whether I could handle it all alone as a single mom. Yes, daddy is always around despite our separation. But financially, we are quite separate. I was to take over all medical bills this year on. After what I thought was a thorough look-around for a good health insurance plan in my job, on our first visit to the pediatrician's for Artimus' 3 year check up, I was told by the pediatrician that they do not take GHI. For the first time, I felt the weight of having no health insurance. Even on a regular annual visit, which is a routine check up, the cost was an arm and a leg - $285.00, after some major discount. How do people with no health insurance but who have health problems handle it? This experience made me question whether I have too much on my plate and not enough mental power to do things right. I need to reevaluate how I get things done and look for room to improve so I don't make this type of big mistake again. Meanwhile, I'll be searching for a pediatrician who takes GHI.
Another lesson learned today - GHI does not pay its doctors enough so doctors are dropping GHI left and right.
As for the single moms out there handling it all, and who still have a good spirit, I applaud you. This is a tough road to travel.
I am a little down, not the kids. There was a moment today when I just questioned whether I could handle it all alone as a single mom. Yes, daddy is always around despite our separation. But financially, we are quite separate. I was to take over all medical bills this year on. After what I thought was a thorough look-around for a good health insurance plan in my job, on our first visit to the pediatrician's for Artimus' 3 year check up, I was told by the pediatrician that they do not take GHI. For the first time, I felt the weight of having no health insurance. Even on a regular annual visit, which is a routine check up, the cost was an arm and a leg - $285.00, after some major discount. How do people with no health insurance but who have health problems handle it? This experience made me question whether I have too much on my plate and not enough mental power to do things right. I need to reevaluate how I get things done and look for room to improve so I don't make this type of big mistake again. Meanwhile, I'll be searching for a pediatrician who takes GHI.
Another lesson learned today - GHI does not pay its doctors enough so doctors are dropping GHI left and right.
As for the single moms out there handling it all, and who still have a good spirit, I applaud you. This is a tough road to travel.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Maturing
I am glad to report that they are still full of spirit and quite adventurous these days, despite being home bound most of the time. The weather is treacherous and cold. The good thing is we are actually beginning to love being at home. This may be because these days, they actually clean up after themselves, and we have a routine of some sort so that being home is more tolerable. They do have incessant energy for creative play, and they chat and play together non-stop all day long. Thank God they love playing with each other! When my head is full and distracted like today, it's great to have a routine to follow and they have each other's company.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Artimus is THREE
Here is Artimus' photo smile at her three year birthday party! So typical of a three year old who does the fake/forced smile at the sight of a camera pointed at her. She makes me laugh every time. Can't believe she is three. I also can't believe how the past three years felt like a lifetime. Remembering how she was when she was a baby is a challenge. I just remember she was always curious, even when she was just two weeks old. When people say personality is formed or can be seen by age three, I think one can have a pretty good guess after just a week of life. Artimus was easy going the moment she was born. Yes, that's right, but I will spare you the details of how I came to that conclusion. To this day, at age three, Artimus is still easy going, with a carefree way about her. At times though, she is beginning to be self conscious of her appearance and what people think about her. So only recently, I find that she is exhibiting some "shyness" and reservations about saying "hi". Well, that's part of growing up. Happy Birthday my love - the girl of my dreams!
Monday, February 15, 2010
Inspired by the book "Half The Sky"
I am inspired by a new found feeling that I can change the world despite all the obstacles - because either I am engaged in making it better or I am just making it just as bad. Now, the urgency to be a part of the change comes from seeing my little girl's pure love, feelings, curiosities and innocence, and knowing that millions of little girls in poor villages throughout the world are beatened, maimed, raped, and even killed.
I love my precious Artimus and I could not even stand seeing her sad. Well, I have the joy of saying I have never seen her sad, and I hope I never will but I know I am dreaming about that. She has been throwing a lot of tandrums lately to get me to yield to her wishes. Can't wait for this phase to be over.
Hope everyone gets a chance to peek in this book.
Thursday, February 04, 2010
I Am Back
In case you wonder why I have not entered a new post since August 2008, the lives of the He's have changed drastically beginning right around August 2008. For reasons too personal to get into on a blog about life with the new beings, I'll just say that Daddy and Mommy separated, and Mommy has physical custody of Ethan and Artimus. As always, Daddy and Mommy put Ethan and Artimus on the top of our priority list. So as far as they know, Daddy just doesn't sleep in the apartment. Well, okay, we also told them that Daddy and Mommy are not together anymore but that we will always love them and we will always "love" each other, which we do.
Gosh, it's amazing that I am still struggling with the sleeping issue a year and a half after I vowed to train them to sleep on their own. How did I think that it was just going to be several months? The good news is, they each have their own twin size bed and they fall asleep in their own bed, with me sitting on a chair in their room. Then some time in the middle of the night, I find Ethan right next to me in my bed. This has been the norm for the past two months. Well, I am gathering up the strength to carry him back every night. But that won't start until work in the office slows down a bit.
Until next time, please take care!
-JW
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